It’s been a while, but I’m back. I first disappeared to give youtube a try, though it does have a few advantages over blogging (mostly that it’s easier to show things), it simply takes up too much energy. Another big advantage of blogging for me is that it’s simply a lot more flexible.
Also things have been going pretty poorly lately, so I also disappeared from creating content altogether for a while. I’m not going to go into too much detail of what’s going on, that’s a bit too personal, specially since it doesn’t involve just me, but also my partner. Oh, between the two of us everything is fine by the way. Long story short, both of us have been battling with our depression. For me personally my depression took a big dip, but I seem to be getting back on top a bit. We are also having some issues with our income. Both on top of already being spoonies.
Yesterday I went to the gender clinic for the first time. I thought I’d share my experience along the way, because pretty much all the info out there is UK, US or Canada based. I live in the Netherlands myself, but because Ghent is closer to me than me than any of the Dutch gender clinics, I decided to go to Ghent. Luckily my insurance coverage is the same for both, because Ghent is closer.
Honestly arriving at the hospital was a bit overwhelming, because it’s HUGE. Really just massive. It’s really well organised though, so I doubt that will be a problem the second time. The appointment itself was nice. It was more or less an intake, but mostly just them getting to know me and them telling me about the gender clinic. They were very autism friendly, or at least the lady I saw was. They are however very men/woman focussed, but they are very flexible in treatment and I can’t change my gender marker to anything neutral anyway so it’s not a big deal to me. For example it is possible to get top surgery without or before getting testosteron for trans masc folks, which I didn’t expect. They were also not at all trying to make you doubt yourself, which I have also heard about a lot of places. You do have to go through at least 5 assessment appointments, but mostly to discuss what you want exactly. Because I was already very sure of being trans and the first few steps in my medical transition I will probably get T, topsurgery and a legal name change this year. So that’s all way faster than I expected. I’m still kind of amazed. I’m so glad I don’t have to wait as long as I expected. I have my next appointment in a month, so I’ll tell you more then.
Now about that grocery haul… You might have noticed. It says vegetarian. With the combination of our current budget and being spoonies and all that’s going on it’s just not doable to be strictly vegan. Kind of ironic after that budget challenge last year, I know. Honestly, preparing food is a day job for me now. I spent just under €43. It will probably last us somewhere between 1-2 weeks. Except for tofu that is, which I get at the Asian food shop. This is what I got:
In the order of the receipt:
- 2 bags of frozen potato slices
- 2 cartons of soy milk
- 1 carton of unsweetened almond milk
- 1 jar of peanut butter
- 2 cans of sweetcorn
- 1 jar of eggless mayo
- 3 cartons of tomato sauce
- 3 bags of flour
- 1 net of large onions
- 1 large bag of fresh potatoes
- 1 jar of mustard
- 2 jars of tomato puree
- 1 bag of small onions
- 2 packs of muesli bars*
- 1 large carton of eggs*
- 2 jars of apple sauce
- 2 large jars of beans in tomato sauce
- 1 pack of sauerkraut
- 1 pack of celery
- 2 bags of split peas
- 3 packs of baguettes that you toss in the oven at home
- 2 packs of oats
- 1 bottle of lemon juice
- 1 leek
- 2 packs of hamburger buns (they were on sale, yay)
- 1 loaf of sandwich bread
- 1 bag of sugar
- 1 net of avocados
- 1 bag of winter carrots
- a few handfuls of green beans
- 1 head of celeriac root
The items with a * aren’t vegan, everything else is.
I’ve already used the peas and a lot of the vegetables to make a huge pot of Dutch split pea soup, or as we call it, snert. Well, the traditional stuff contains meat, but no need for that of course. It’s not exactly pretty, but name any soup that is. Witches brew anyone?
Lastly I want to share with you the gofundme I created recently. We’re incredible broke at the moment and the little bit of income we have doesn’t cover our bills, let alone food. Luckily we still have a fair bit of cat food left, so let’s hope our situation improves before we run out of that. Another reason is that I need money for transport (probably renting a car) to the gender clinic, so we don’t have to rely on my partners parents to borrow their car, because of conflict. After all, getting medical costs covered isn’t much use if you can’t get there.
Thank you all for tuning in and I hope to see you next time. Bye!